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| Monday, October 24th, 2005 | | 9:25 pm |
Last night was on the phone with manager listening to beats, its so convenient that my manager goes to my home school &&& lives down the street from me. but yea, im gettin the CD with all the beats to write to on Wednesday. Im not reachin collage bun that im hatin school i cried nuff times today and no1 gives a %#$@ but u know what i dun care nemore, i dun have tru friends nemore, i onli got aquaintances. to me all my bests are at church and are part of the "family". Tru say. But umm yeah Khalid tho we aint together is so helpful to me and i loce him with all my heart haha "being single sucks after a couple weeks" aww he is so cute. he's my "cuzzin" lmao. tomro is gon b crazy not reachin school cuz i hate it nuff reachin yorkdale, watchin the fog?! AAHHHH. but yea and umm to all those ppl hu lovin up their life and want to rub it up in pplz faces haha BUN YOU! no joke! ciao |
| Sunday, October 16th, 2005 | | 5:40 pm |
OMG OMG OMG i love clubbin, though i was a club virgin sumwhat but damn last nite was noice! the last guy i was wit i didnt want to leave and i want him to call me!!! Geez! He was such a great grinder! DAMN! lol TIKA U missed so much everyone was all over sumone else lol. LOL then when misha, cindy and i got home we drank and giggled extremely, lol look at pics in misha's space there r jokes. lol i love those girls and im gon go call that boy AGAIN! he wasnt home =( but yes i miss him and like onli danced wit him for half an hour! |
| Saturday, October 8th, 2005 | | 10:48 pm |
Im gonna rite an entry like my heart isnt breakin and im not cryin. So yesterday was fun..i guess umm science we made gold & silver pennies, asp did that test and then i left for guidance(talk bout after), then music had the artist in the classroom, english finished that movie and did our friday rants. The bus was funny though me and Nithiqua. "I still dunno y i went out wit him" "from day one i was like J wtf is goin thru ur head" "lol tru say i was wonderin the same thing after awhile" lmao i love her. so yea bout guidance, i couldnt deal wit my stress anymore so i went to see Ms. Say. we talked for like half an hour and til now im still wonderin how i didnt cry out all my pain and troubles. I love Ms. Say mayb more than Mr. Sal? hmm but yea and i destressed a lil im good now sumwhat still kinda wantin to cry and juss break down but i told myself ill b strong. Umm then i had choir and we performed and we got standin ovation and omg best part "KINGDOM" "SEEKERS" "KINGDOM" "SEEKERS"!!! yeye lol it was crazy. yea then after that my life went messed up. i wont talk bout it after gettin sumthin to eat i juss got pissed and then today i got hurt and pissed and now im juss hurt and cryin but ye thats how it goes rite. pain all over. I just wish i had the courage to overdose rite now. honestly. |
| Sunday, October 2nd, 2005 | | 3:57 pm |
K so im back from church and ooooo im tired. But here is my news again. So i was doin my solo for my choir and we all love it off so im like dancin and like goin crazy cuz its a hype song cuz its like R&B. Yes thats rite my church is hype and has r&b christian music. so that was practise and we perform on friday =D. So after practise Christina, came up to me and was like what r u doin after ur done high school and im like univ. and she's like taking and im like phsycology and she's like is music ur hobby and im like chyea and she's like would you like to have music as like a job somewhat and im like sure. So now Erin is supposedly callin me during this week and i have to think "hype" this week because they like other ppl are askin if i want to do a CD. =D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D guys im so excited but yesh i have to discuss wit my momma and my momma #2 tho i know she'll b like go wit Andrew but so many ppl to pick from but we shall see! YESH! ok so ahh im tired i need to sleep b4 studyin 4 chem and music and practisin music again. ok im gone byes! |
| Saturday, October 1st, 2005 | | 8:03 pm |
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG who other than tika watch Alicia Keys unplugged. like OMG diary was so hot that guy was so goood holy $%@$&$%& and the wild horses song with the guy from maroon 5 was so sex! i wish i knew a guy hu sings and plays guitar i wanna do it for Cawthra Live omg it would be so crazy. LMAO im so paranoid over her like honestly alicia keys is so doable lol rite tika ;). but yes im so like amazed still that 1 hour thing i was gettin mad cuz my mom closed her eyes lol and i didnt let her change the channel even during commercials lmao. I love Alicia Keys so darn much. I need to go to one of her concerts like honestly if someone got me tickets i would so do them like 1000x. HAHAHA. UGH i need to breathe ok time to call baby ciao! |
| Friday, September 30th, 2005 | | 1:09 pm |
So i stayed home today cuz i was so not feelin well this mornin and my mom said i could. So im watchin tv and sippin on sum orange juice =D. But yesterday was ALBION HILLS damn so much fun. Lets see getting on the bus over again, the giant bbq, stockin up on food, gettin lost in the forest, 4 person piggy back, crzy kid in the grey sweater, crip walkin, heel toe, anderson tacklin jones, 10 fingers, camera flashing, mehdi pimpin the grade 11s, wedgyin julie, slappin bootys, "guys mehdi's dead", jaclyn's comfy chest lol, talkin bout grody(sp?)girls, kissin pics, that game where we where we had to get in groups lol, lights in eyes, late buses, me fallin on my head nuff times, mehdi spinnin me, table fallin on my hand, secret park, me camouflaging (sp?) in the dark umm i think thats it lol im so bored i wrote it all out but hey nth to do. my eye is killin me and my neck hurts i still have my voice surprisingly and i need to practise my aria again =S. Tomoro im fixin my nappy hair whoo hot jj rollin into school monday. |
| Monday, September 19th, 2005 | | 8:58 pm |
So havent written for time... things goin messed but w.e have to call him in a few minutes juss thot id update. well ummm today in english we wrote these poems... tell me how it poured onto the paper so easily. damn i must be depressed lately cuz i cant deal wit this boy ugh ok so here is my poem... Why does the heart break ever so slowly? Because the heart sings only one song because the heart can feel theings the brain cant see why is it that wen it breaks no one should ever know? is it because we are ashamed? ashamed that we fell so deeply that our feelings and emotions are too fragile for words that our minds cant comprehend the inner depths of our hearts is it because we feel we are the only ones with this pain and no one else would understand? why cant our emotions be controlled? could it be that we are too involved that it takes hold so fast? that the heart is after all the most powerful thing? because the only reason we cant keep ourselves together is because love is the most powerful word that as soon as the words "i love you" are spoken you are sucked into the emotional rollercoaster of your life so why do our hearts break so slowly is it because we go through denial and its even harder to cope? is it because we wouldnt think it would break that moment in time? its all because we were made for emotions to rock us hard to bring us to a point where we dont want to wake but lay in bed til the heat dries every bit of moisture out of our body. damn. y does he want to hurt me! Current Mood: blahhh |
| Thursday, September 1st, 2005 | | 11:42 am |
School =D
Soo umm my school year is gon kick ass. I'm not worried if not alot of ppl have classes wit me less distractions is how i see it =\. 1st scheduleChemistry -- Pasma ASP --Bartok Music -- Malone Lunch -- Lunch English -- Knipe?!?! yea i like my schedule its not bad. Msg me if you have nething wit me. 2nd semesterMath -- Korre?!?! Parenting -- Peckett?!?! Music -- Malone Lunch -- Lunch Biology -- Holmes Once again let me know if you have nething wit me =D |
| Tuesday, August 30th, 2005 | | 12:07 pm |
Soo umm hmm im back? if its a good thing. Lots happened but im not goin to write sum long ass entry to fill everyone in. The basics are im happy, i got my fam, my friends and my boy and im lovin life right now. Got into 2 choirs =) realy busy and i like being busy actually its weird but either way its good. School's coming and im ready goin to work really hard this year. Umm ppl have asked if they want to produce me =) yay. but i want to finish this year first b4 i do anything cuz edumacation comes first. This summer was fun i loved it i had my competition in july i got 2 more trophies and my piano has no more room left lol. I started dealin wit Khalid and my mom likes him alot so BONUS! =) Life cant get any better rite now im really happy. Ive let go of all the people holding me back and throwing me down now i onli got my closests by my side and i love love love them. I cant stress how much ppl mean to me rite now and ive made up wit so many people lately and im still plannin on makin up wit ppl. On the other sad and pissed off side i saw my dad sunday grr i hate him. Tikaz i know you know what im talkin bout. But chyea im good i mean im only goin to use him cuz its not like he cares right? whatever. hee hee bye guys Current Mood: ecstatic |
| Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005 | | 2:21 pm |
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| Tuesday, June 7th, 2005 | | 6:58 pm |
not bothering to write in this shytt cuz no1 reads it. I just want to say one thing, people come and go and people change but the ones hu stay tru to u are not the ones u think, its really urself. I hate opening my eyes to the truth but its tru and watelse shud isay oooo, people backstab and deal with it there is nothing anyone can do, ill have a new acocunt laters so keep wit the times and ask me bout it, but then again no point so outee. |
| Thursday, June 2nd, 2005 | | 9:13 pm |
DEPRESSION
IS
KICKING
IN
TEARS
FALL
AND
SO
DO
I
GOODBYE! |
| Tuesday, May 31st, 2005 | | 4:38 pm |
this week is already turning into bull shytt, but like watever i learning not to care cuz i want to be techinically kicked out the school instead of just leaving. This school is to stressful, i feel so out of place, i want to curl up and die, i've cried out all my tears and i still feel like hitting someone. Too out of it to even care bout things like w.e im changing everyone is y am i caring, dam i need more advil. |
| Saturday, May 28th, 2005 | | 6:35 pm |
Never been so mad in my life!(names and places changed cuz i want to? pshh) I wake up this morning and called Jake and who happened to be hanging out with him but Peter. Grr Peter pissed me off so much! I wish I was there to hit him. He thinks he owns me and then has the nerve to call me a whore and a slut! HOLY i wanted to cry, we were good friends I was nice to him but he treated me like ass but I still considered him a friend. Now everyone in Niagara is vexxed wit me for no fcukin reason and I know its cuz of Peter. I swear then I went out and came home and my mom was pissing me off even more. and I cant call (a name that starts wit O) and pshh im so irritated. Plus I hung up on boo and i feel bad cuz he wasnt home so I cant call back! SHYTT. I'm so vexxed Boys! I swear what the hell, you dont own girls, you push us around and I swear you think you control us. HELL your fcukin rong we are people too the whole "women are not considered persons" situation is over, learn sumthing, we have feelings and we can decide whether you are worth our time. In the end it will b u feeling dryyy because no girl wants you cuz ur so dam controlling. Even if your a g'z friend dont fcukin control her actions and what she does. I swear we are people we have feelings we can do all the shytt we want. we want to go sleep at another guy friends house, trust us and dont start hitting us its stupid! I hope that people learn things sooner or later because Im tired of stressing over all this stupid shytt people come up to me with! Dear Mother fucker! I am a girl who has feelings, who has a life to live, and doesnt need your ass ruining it. You've hurt me too many times to count and even you said it yourself "you treat me so good" and how do you repay me for being so kind, by pretending you own me, Im not PROPERTY!! Get a fuckin life, you've messed wit mine long enough just let me live. I'm tired of being vexxed wit u all this time im goin to forget bout you, and if everyone else is goin to be asses to me thats cuzz they dont have the fuckin balls to do what they want to do and not listen to u! Im done helping you out, I'm tired of the damn courage you think you have, your cockiness, you've changed immensely from the sweet person you used to be, we used to talk 5-9 at night 11-3 in the mornin now its 5 secs and we're off the phone people change but not change as bad as you have, fuck good riddance! Thank you for opening my eyes! A WOMAN! |
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| Wednesday, May 25th, 2005 | | 8:40 pm |
If you could see what I see
You’re the answer to my prayers, oh...
And if u could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear that angels brought me hereI love that song Carrie sang it in AI. its soo purdy! Friday nite movies wit Liese seeing The Longest Yard girls nite whoo! Say boo todayz...fun fun. Always good yup time went by slowly which was good in this situation cuz i wanted to stay longer, everytime the bus came i was like next one, next one, okay next one. lmao and my mom didnt say nething when I got home =D. Yeshumz. Gots ta bounce AI finale |
| Tuesday, May 24th, 2005 | | 7:54 pm |
Tho no one reads this...
Im seeing him tomolo! YAY! okiee so it's all planned i cant say shytt on here tho cuz last time i said my plans to see a boi my momma found out...o.O. buh yea ooee im happy as hell. Today was boring but talkin to baby made it worth while he makes me laugh. lmao tika made me laugh in english today and omg ppl i didnt fully slap him it was like tapping not like the whole zack thingy! pssh. BTW tho this is random SANJU LOOKED HOTT TODAYZ! its tru sry if thats random. Ummz hot boys in sq 1 today it was like singles day cuz i knew couple of dem lmao hee hee but ohwellerz. I wanna see omar soon times. its killin me. Time to end the randomness. AI is over tomoro nite lmao HANS cant watch it nemore cuz Baby V is gone pooiee! blab im such a retard todayz meh got to work on: - Music CE project(Thursday) - Gym Fitness Blast(Friday) - English Response (Friday) and thats it :O outeee! |
| Monday, May 23rd, 2005 | | 2:54 pm |
 the studious student. You are definitely pressured and suffer from side effects from built up stress. You are constantly occupying yourself with books, studies, or some other hobby. You feel squeezed in place and have litte movement. Most of the time you are busy with work and family, and would love to spread your wings and relax. One like you needs to find a certain time of the day to just sit and release the tension. However, you are doing fairly well in school, but that does not mean that you can continue stressing yourself out. Take a breather and head out with some friends.
You can consider going into a field like
librarian, polotician, journalist,
Archeologist, scientist, or lawyer. You have a
brain...NOW USE IT....but please...spare
yourself the pressure and create some down time
for yourself. Or develop a hobby that releases
tension, such as knitting (it worked wonders
for me)
What type of teenager are you?
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thats me yay! yuppy outee
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| Saturday, May 21st, 2005 | | 4:56 pm |
So pissed today!!! its funny how we fight but only out of love, gollay he made me smile so big today, i cudnt see him today!!=( |
| Friday, May 20th, 2005 | | 10:08 pm |
Most of it seems true watch...
What You Really Think Of Your Friends
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Jaclyn is your soulmate. |
| You truly love Damaine. |
| You consider Martika your true friend. |
| You know that Julie is always thinking of you. |
| You'll remember Anita for the rest of your life. |
| You secretly think Liesel is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times. |
| You secretly think that Dragica is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker. |
| You secretly think that Tod is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Tod changes lovers faster than underwear. |
| You secretly think Brit is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Brit has a hidden internet romance. |
The ones with D, Tika, Jules, Atina, Liesel, Tod 8-) thing is true, I say that Drag and Brit should switch there places but mehh Current Mood: same as 5 mins ago |
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